"Catherine I know this isn't a proper place to confess this. This place is full of stupidity and evil but I need to get my fess ons going and feelings out somewhere and somehow to you. I have told you online a few times of how much I love you but I didn't tell you that I am in love with you as we got to know each other on friends site and when we met 6 years ago; even to the extent that I wanted and still want you to be my wife. Not knowing how you feel has destroyed me and I am unaware of whether or not I will be able to maintain my sanity without you in my life. I would have given anything for you to be my bride. "