"At risk for eating disorder
I am 5 ft 6, 21 years old, 140 lbs and I am at a high risk at developing an eating disorder. I'm technically in a healthy weight range, but I obsess about losing 10 lbs. I don't want an eating disorder but I don't know how to stop it. I feel like Jackal and Hyde--I fight against my negative body image and try to tell myself that I'm fine the way I am, but my Jackal monster is defeating me and making me hate mt appearance. I worry about guys finding me attractive, or rather not finding me attractive. I think the root of the issue is that I'm a 21 year old virgin. My ex-boyfriend and I were intimate and almost had sex, but he broke up with me the day after we discussed it. Maybe if I'm thin and beautiful, somebody will love me? I recognize how stupid and shallow that sounds, but it's a slippery slope that I can't get off.