He's my first boyfriend, and I hoped that he'd be my last. I told him...

that I didn't want a physical relationship, as I wanted to save my virginity for the man in my life. He said it was OK, he'd respect that. A month into our relationship, he forced himself on me. I broke up with him. He told me that he was so sorry that he wanted to kill himself. I still had strong feelings for him, so I got back together with him again. Then it happened again and I got pregnant. He left me and refused to talk to me. I had an abortion. For half a year, we didn't speak to each other. He dated another girl. Then, he came back to me, and told me he only did that to try to get over me, but he's a changed person and he really do love me. I got back together with him for the fourth time, in a period of three years. It didn't last long before we broke up again. I don't understand how I can still feel this way about him after all that happened, and when he tells me that he loves me, parts of me still believes in it...

By Anonymous on General,