Side note, this is directed at a completely different meth head than my previous confession......

in case anyone reads both. I shouldn't have believed you. I should have known you were really the one who pawned my PS2. I should have seen how sick you had gotten. I should have done more that night you had a seizure and quit breathing... twice. I should have tried to get you to rehab or a hospital instead of letting the party go on like it didn't happen. I shouldn't have let you beat the shit out of someone for me. I wish I could have stopped all those things. I shouldn't have fallen for you so hard like I did. I should have known you had sunk so far as to shoot it up. I should have been able to help you. I'm sorry I didn't do anything to stop you. I'm so sorry that when you  get out of jail this time I don't think I can spend as much time with you. I'm sorry you went to jail instead of rehab. I know how much you've been in jail and I know it won't slow you down at all. I miss you, the you that watched cartoons with me, threw pillows at me, hung out and chain smoked with me. I want that you back when you get out of jail. I'm so sorry about the fact that if the you I know doesn't come out of there, if you come out being shady again, stealing from your friends again, having a seizure on my couch again... I dont think I can ever see you again.

By Anonymous on General,