spy, angry, jelousy, sex, lost the faith on my love

fuck myself

有一个相亲的对象，但隔的很远，最近认识了一个很谈得来的人，他跟我表白了我好像也喜欢他，怎么办?

With a crush and at a loss. What the fuck do you when you’re a dyke and fall for your mate? Feel like some daft 15-yo-old. Too old for this!

I hate my friends. However they used to be my best friends.I dont like what they talk about.But I have to listen to that. I also hate myself.

i’m 48 y/o and never had real sex with women, sometimes i masturbate but not always, but most of the time i have wet dreams

i like it when i wake up suddenly and find semen in my shorts after a hot and sexy dream

every time i think about having sex with a real woman or a prostitute i feel terrified may be because i have never did this thing before, so i back off

what to do?

i cheat my gf, for 4 months…and she doesn’t know…yet

My mother watches 3 kids from the neighborhood everyday after school. Two of them are only first and second grade boys and the other one is my sister friend Lily who is in 7th grade. I am a freshman in high school. My mom keeps the two boys down stairs with her all the time but Lily and my sister are always in my sisters room. On Tuesdays my sister goes for her piano lesson and Lily is always alone in my sisters room. Last year I started letting Lily see me naked when I came out of the bathroom. My sisters bedroom door is always open even when my sister is there. Her room is across the hall from my room and I would leave my door open far enough for Lily to see in my room but only on Tuesdays. I started to masturbate when I knew she was watching me. One Tuesday I could see she was watching me and masturbated. About an hour later Lily knocked on my door. She never said anything about it before but told me she saw me naked all those times and has been watching me masturbate. She suspected I knew she was watching me and said she should tell my mother about it. She told me that the only time I do it is when my sister gets her piano lessons. She didn’t seem mad at me but told me I was doing it purposly. I denied it at first but then admitted that i was and that it got me aroused that she could see me. She did tell my sister that she saw me naked but never told her I was jerking off. I just told her I couldn’t help it and asked her not to tell on me. She promised not to and then told me she didn’t mind looking at me. The next Tuesday she was in my sisters room again and I just went in my room for awhile. When I walked out she looked at me and asked me if I was going to masturbate today. I wasn’t sure how to react when she said that and was not going to do it in front of her anymore. I asked her then if she wanted to see me do it and she said only if I paid her. I don’t have much money so half joking around I told her I would give her a dollar. When she said ok I almost fainted. I asked her if she wanted to come into my room to watch and again she said ok. I locked my door incase my mother came upstairs and started to get undressed. For the first time I was embarrassed, maybe because she just stood there watching me and I was no longer controlling it. When I was naked before in front of her it was different. I took off all my cloths and layed on my bed putting lotion on my penis. She was smiling and almost laughing at me and sat at the foot of the bed. I started to masturbate and it took me longer than usual to get a full erection. I never jerked off with a girl that close to me before and I could feel myself blushing over it. It took longer than usual for me to finally cum and she stared at my penis the whole time and would asked me how it felt and if I liked her watching me. Now every week I give her a dollar and she watches me jerk off. We talk all the while I’m doing it and now I have to slow down so I don’t cum to fast. I can tell she likes watching me just by the questions shes asks and the way she smiles at me. I have asked her to touch my penis a couple times but she won’t do it and told me she just wants to watch. I did make her swear not to tell my sister about it and don’t think she can now because I give her the dollar every week. She now asks me to stand naked in front of her sometimes and just looks at me. When I’m on the bed naked and masturbating she has me spread my legs open and makes comments about my penis, scrotum and tels me outright she can see my anus sometimes. She mostly sits at the foot of the bed and just constantly talks to me. It is well worth the dollar I give her and it is thrilling to have her watch me. I hope one of these days I can get her to touch me or better yet jerk me off.

I live with Carlo and Reba since I was 4 years old. I am 13 now and thier 2 kids are Nilsa who is 9 and Julio who is 11. When any of us get in trouble or are bad we get spanked. As long as I can remember they always made us get naked before they spanked us. They both speak english good but when carlo hollars at us he always speaks spanish. Carlo is my mothers cousin and my godfather. They spank us naked in front of each other most of the time. They even spank us like that in front of other relitives sometimes. When Carlo drinks a lot he spanks us for little things we do. He spanked Nilsa last week in front of me and Julio. He made her take all her clothes off in the kitchen and spanked her very hard. I know she was embarresed but not as much as i am becuse she doesn’t hve any breasts yet. I don’t think it is fair that i am spanked naked and think i am to old now for them to do that to me. i am always and always was shamed when i am spanked naked in front of Nilsa and Julio but many time was spanked that way in front of uncles and other cousins. I have seen Julio and Nilsa spanked naked many times and they have seen me naked and spanked many times. I have thought aboutrunning away but have nowhere to go. I try to be good all the time but sometimes i get in trouble and get spanked when i do. Carlo spanks us more than Reba does and hits us much longer and harder and both of them make us get naked. I have breasts now and hair growing and am so embarresed when I get spanked i just want to die somtimes. They don’t understand how shameful it is for me now. it was even bad when i was littleler. I have begged them not to make me get naked but they just call me a kid. They don’t care who is watching and don’t know how it makes me upset. When Carlo drinks a lot it is even worse and he gets real mean with us. Three weeks ago i failed an algebra test very bad. Carlo got home late that day and it was after 8 oclock when Nilsa came in my room and said her dad wants me in the kitchen. When i got to the kitchen he was already hollaring at me in spanish. I knew he was drinking a lot as soon as i walked in the kitchen. I knew I was going to get spanked but when I looked around the room Reba, Nilsa and Julio were there but I never expected Rebas brother Hecter and his son Juan to be there. Jaun is the same age as Nilsa so I think he is 9 or 10. Carlo took off his belt and told me to take my clothes off as he just kept hollaring at me. I just stated crying and was trembling and shaking at the thought of being naked in front of all of them. Hecter had seen me naked one other time but i know Jaun never did. I was so scared I couldn’t move and as he hollared at me he grabbed my hair and started pulling up my night shirt. When it was off and on the floor he held my hair and made me take off my panties. I was so shamed i just kept crying and he pulled me over his lap by my hair. I was almost out of my mind when he started spanking me with his hand i started to kick and scream. Reba got up and held my legs and I could see everyone looking at me. I was wiggleing so much my head was almost on the floor and he began to spank me with the belt. The pain was so bad i know i was screaming and begging him not to hit me anymore. When he finally stopped he just pushed me on the floor. I just layed there for a minute and could see Juan, Hecter and Julio looking at my breasts and vagina and god knows what else they saw when i was on Carlos lap. My whole face was wet with tears and when i got up i started for the steps but Carlo again grabbed my hair and started to hoolar at me in spanish again. I just stood their as he held my hair trying to cover myself with my hands. I could see Nilsa felt sorry for me by the sad look on her face but Juan, Hecter and even Julio were smiling and even laughing at me. When he let me go i started to run to the steps but Carlo made me come back and pick up my nightshirt and panties off the floor then I just ran as fast as I could to my room. A few days later I sat and talked to Carlo and Reba and Carlo wasn’t drinking. I pleaded and begged them not to ever do that to me again in front of people. I told them how much they shamed me doing that and they finally promised only to spank me in private from now on. I just hope Carlo isn’t lying to me and keeps his word. I am xtra carful to stay out of trouble and am studying harder everynight now and do all my homework.

I seldom call sb. if we meet each other casully because I don’t like calling others.And it may made others feel embarrased.