i think i love my boss, i really want him, want to have sex with him

want to lick his body, kiss him, let him suck my cock and balls

want to rub my hands over his butt, message them and squeeze them

have my finger deep inside his crack

while talking dirty to him and listening to him too

want him to pee all over my body

i even wish to drink his piss

i really want him, only him and no one else

what to do?

should i ask him?

what if he refused? i would be shocked and might kill myself

help me please