"I wish I could split this up into multiple categorie I'm 16 going on 17 and already feel like I've lived too long. I experimented with my best friend when I was 8, but lied and said he sexually abused me because I was so embarrassed. I'm so good at lying that I end up believing my own lie, making me ignore the problem, but still feeling the incredible guilt from it. As I grew up, I sexually abused several of my other friends, all because I decided I didn't want to control my hormones. I'm very kind and forgiving (generally), but I can't seem to forgive myself. I'm becoming very overweight and annoying. I can't help but want to kill myself because Aof all I've done, and I can't get it off my chest because Ill go to jail. I also am extremely paranoid, have severe OCD, ADHD, Aspergers, Tourette's, and can't seem to believe in a higher power if my life "