I can't wait for my grandparents to die I can't wait for my grandparents to die,...

as bad as it sounds. I have already been mourning their deaths in therapy, because at one point I was scared to come to the house and find one of them dead. But they seem to be getting healthier and healthier. I have lived with them all of my life, have tried to move but financial issues have plagued me. Now I realize what has to be done, but I have basically become their primary caregiver/go-to person when they need things because I'm here. Also, I lost my job at the start of this year so right now I'm unemployed but seriously on the hunt, and have let them know I will eventually be working, and getting out of this house. My dog also died last month, after being diagnosed with an illness the same week I was fired. That almost destroyed me and I will forever be sad about my dog than I would about them passing at this point. The week after my dog died, my grandfather wrecked his car, again, driving like an idiot, and part of me hoped he was gone when I had to drive to the scene. He was fine, and I was angry because of it. He no longer has a car and I have to drive everywhere for them, mainly because my grandmother demands everything despite what others have to do and will cause people to make unnecessary trips. She will also guilt trip you if you try to tell her how much sense it does not make and if you try to come to a sensible resolution. She will also critique the things you buy, but will not come with you to do her own damn shopping. She is not crippled, just lazy and wants to rule from a chair. She also has a shrill voice and stays calling my name and I HATE it. I also resent her for accusing a family member of molesting me as a child, which is totally false. She only said it out of spite because she is angry with the person for something that happened between THEM years ago that she won't forgive. So I will definitely be glad when her evil ass is gone. Also, I have an amazing boyfriend who understands my situation as he also helps to take care of an elderly family member. He is way more patient and calmer than I am, bless him. But he has seen firsthand the crap I've gone through and he does get it and many people won't. My bf wants to eventually get married and have kids, but sometimes I don't even want kids because my grandparents f****** act like them and I know I will need time to decompress before taking that step. There's other family that can help out and have offered to help, but my grandparents do not want to ask anyone else but me. I don't even want anything from them when they're gone. I just want my freedom so I can live my life like a normal adult, so my anxiety and depression levels can go down, and so that I can get a full night's sleep without my grandfather banging on my door (he doesn't know how to knock) whenever he wants something.

By Anonymous on General,