I've begun to really resent my position as the "favorite" of my aunt's nephews and nieces. She has no kids, and my mom isn't really in the picture, so we've become surrogates for each other. It's great, but now things are changing.
I hate having to put on this fake act of being an overachieving, well-mannered girl. I want to make mistakes, fall in love, etc. But I can't. Anything I do could be used against me and she'll label me as another "disappointment."
What's worse is that some of my cousins and siblings have begun to turn against me because of it. I haven't talked to my oldest brother in over a year (he used to be her favorite before they got into a big fight), and he hasn't responded to my attempts to get back in touch. My other cousins don't talk to me as much anymore either.
I really wish I could just go back to the old days where were all one big family and it didn't matter who was the "golden child.""