"I have been sad last few days its anniversary of sabi's death, I don't expect people to understand,cuz I just don't give a flying fuck who I offend these days since she went. I have so much bitterness in me and false friendliness and false politeness there are days I have to force it politeness out and its painful but its better the days when I can be blantantly rude, hard and cruel and harsh and mean to heaps of people. it somehow makes me feel better! just over a cat. and fuck the world on their spastic fucking xmas eve holedown hellfire shows. I hope heaps of people die in hell anyway. who cares! I just write my songs and that is a different side to me no one sees. "