how can a reasonably thin teenager attract so many fat yobo old boring slobs? and...

losers? old alex of 70, some loser south american of 80 some violent pig like ron, was I that bad looking or that poorly behaved ? cuz I just won't except I was that ugly at 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21,22 , 23- even up to 37 before I started gaining weight again from these medications and illnesses. I just won't accpet I was this ugly ugly ugly red haired teen that everyone wanted me to believe! you all have to answer and be punsihed and to your penance over that! my cats are all who care about me and being on a disability pension only is not even enought to look after them properly with vet bills and insurance and I can't afford all these surgeons and doctors for back and this and that. every week theres something.and this little wanker in some business chain called me a shit magnet one day - what woman wants to be spoken to like that.