rick made me cry so many times, i gave up counting love isn't crying to...

me, love is doing exciting grand things at grand scale enjoyment, not bs and soppy non-sense. I just like getting dressed up and eating out or going out a lot to feel alive. like yes i have to study and make quite time for that and my cats and health too but I like going out and getting dressed up a bit. it makes live more fun. if only I knew fun and had friends to have fun with. every night was sad and tears crap and I had ear infections and cried a lot alone at night for years and years, it was just something to do, cleared up the sinus a lot and lost weight. I would cry at the drop of a hat over anything. just cuz a few people kicked the bucket and no one liked me and i couldn't find any friends to fit in with anywhere and all my neighbors had parties all the time, the only parties we had were for my sisters lot, or radio old farts or as a child relatives and political dos at our house. I can't remeber experiencing any fun, I was never the cause of the party the life of the party, the reason for the party people didn't come to see me, as if anyone would like me! too nice and shy that was the problem.

By Anonymous on General,