From reddit: I'm not looking for absolution or closure. I'll view penance with interest. This is catharsis.
"This doesn't tie in to any one specific event or conclusion of a sequence of events in my life, unless you want to count where I now stand as being the conclusion of a sequence of events. Don't worry, there's a list coming. It'll be long. You may want to skip this post. I'm not looking for 'ohhh, it's okayyyyy', this is purely a confession. I'm gue..."