From reddit: I feel bad about myself when I talk negatively about people behind their backs or speak negatively in a general way, but I find myself frequently doing it anyway.
"I really don’t like it. I feel like I’m deceitful, even if I think they deserve it.
At the same time, I feel good when I speak positively about people and things but sometimes feel that sharing these thoughts makes me weak/gives power to others that I cannot spare.
It’s not easy to navigate the world being so aware of my thoughts and feelings...."