From reddit: I'm suicidal. But like, really passively suicidal
"On mobile so forgive any mistakes
I just want to fucking die. Like if I'm in a car I'll be thinking of all the ways the car could crash, killing me instantly. Or if I get chest pains I kinda half wish that it's a heart attack and I'll die so I dont have to go on. I'm genuinely sick of being alive but at the same time terrified of dying. A horrific..."