From reddit: I kind miss being a fat depressed but hopeful loser.
"I'm not hopeful anymore but I'm not fat. But what did losing weight actually do. Yeah sure I got to feel what it's like to have sex with desperate neurotic girls. But back then despite constantly thinking I was in love with different women way out of my league every other week. I had hope and was way less numb. Now I'm a loser in a different way. N..."