I am wondering if I make stupid decisions over and over again when it comes to money and life choices that I think will be helpful and I read the advice labels etc and panic and I think later why am I constantly making what seems like good or sound caution and safe decisions most of the time but for a few which I do think were done completely irrationally in a state of shock, fear and phobia, why does most of my more seemingly logical cautious decisions end up looking stupid later, like I thought I was doing the right thing going to therapy when the issues arouse as a teen and at university and now realise I should have just projected my problems on to others unconsciously and bashed girls to get men and got drunk and gone out to night clubs more not been so cautious, and all the pharmacy and legal and business and allied health certificates etc just been a waste of time like university was. its strange that not many man valued what I value and they didn't think "well she is worth dating" I am confused!