I forgave kids who abuse me as a child long ago, being pushed and dunked in pools that made me afraid of water and when my friend drown and died. I accept my sister is not a nice person to me and same like my brother and his wife. I don't understand it but I just accept it and ignore them because mum said we have nothing in common at all with them or any of her family and my older cousins so I just accept it. there is some reason why my mother always wanted to keep me and her family apart. I accept it but she has to accept it now also! this is a world that people reap what they sow, so I was told. but I forgave the kids who abused me a long time ago. just put it behind me and accepted they were just kids too. yet people abuse me. I don't forgive that however. why should I and a few people at some churches said that "god is very angry about what happened to me" and "god has seen that you give to others and don't get much back in return, humans have not seen it but god has seen how used you have been and what a good spirit you have and god is going to deal with all your enemies and you don't even have to!"

I forgave kids who abuse me as a child long ago, being pushed and dunked in pools that made me afraid of water and when my friend drown and died. I accept my sister is not a nice person to me and same like my brother and his wife. I don't understand it but I just accept it and ignore them because mum said we have nothing in common at all with them or any of her family and my older cousins so I just accept it. there is some reason why my mother always wanted to keep me and her family apart. I accept it but she has to accept it now also! this is a world that people reap what they sow, so I was told. but I forgave the kids who abused me a long time ago. just put it behind me and accepted they were just kids too. yet people abuse me. I don't forgive that however. why should I and a few people at some churches said that "god is very angry about what happened to me" and "god has seen that you give to others and don't get much back in return, humans have not seen it but god has seen how used you have been and what a good spirit you have and god is going to deal with all your enemies and you don't even have to!"
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