I don't like boats, I don't like being in water like the sea, I get sea sick badly on a ferris wheel let alone a cruise, I have to take medication to stop vomiting because of middle ear problems, I get sun burnt badly so I won't be about to go out in the deck much because I can't bare the look of the flaming water and the fear of the ship sinking, I can't stand the smell of the sea, I hate everything rocking. I just like being with real friends and eating out lean, I can't stand the sight of my relatives and most of my family. I have no friends and no husband and no boyfriend, no one likes me because of one dead beat loser who raped me and I am over it. I went and got medical help, I don't want the scam artist near me again. I even prefer planes over cruises anywhere we go my mother or father or both will have to come with me because I don't trust anyone but them and my doctors and police unless I take the ones who care about me with me what if I get sick and have heart problems or ear or other problems? I always seem to want to be around a good doctor or police officer who seen me professionally to feel safe and if I get sick will help me if I need something. I don't trust anyone else. I want to enjoy a holiday but its no fun with all the problems, what about my cats, I can't leave them here with anyone incase they will harm them, I can't trust my sister alone and my dad is not likely to go anyway because he always complains and my sister spoils everything anyway. we are a broken family where things can not be fixed all thanks to fuckface pooorter holehead.