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I hate people in my neighborhood they are cuntz. mongrel criminal cuntz always up to no good. like I would do a person a good turn before a bad one but no one around here cares at all what I am suffering. They do nothing but abuse. They tortured me when they were stealing and breaking and entering into houses. I still live in fear, we need to get out of this town to a better place. I want to live in a better house and I am sick of everything here.

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I hate people in my neighborhood they are cuntz. mongrel criminal cuntz always up to no good. like I would do a person a good turn before a bad one but no one around here cares at all what I am suffering. They do nothing but abuse. They tortured me when they were stealing and breaking and entering into houses. I still live in fear, we need to get out of this town to a better place. I want to live in a better house and I am sick of everything here.
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