It makes me so mad Nothing p***** me off more when my sister talks about how she's "traumatized" by the time her ex boyfriend slapped her across the face once...she makes it a huge deal and the family feel soo sorry for her.... If anyone should be the emotionally damaged one its me... My first boyfriend (and so far I haven't had another boyfriend after him) was extremely abusive towards me...I was slammed into walls, punched, kicked....to the point where I couldn't even stand up...I've had knives held up to my throat and I had to beg for my life numerous times. I've had to come home with bruises and my family didn't even notice...weird when guys call my sexy, fine and all that crap. i was a dorky lonely geeky girl for year and i somtimes forget i dont look like that anymore. When i close my eyes i still see that. I wish guys could see me, not just my body. They now know that I was abused and really don't seem to care... But with my sister they comfort her whenever she brings it up...Completely Unrealistic I've known someone over the internet for roughly 7 years (give or take), and after so much time spent sharing like-minded zany humor and pun wars, geeking out over video games together, serious discussion of minor little real-life aspects, growing up through school at the same time and general mundane chatter I'm hit upon the feeling these past few months that I may be developing feelings of romantic attraction to him. Something just 'clicks' whenever we talk--I feel a little bolder, I feel more comfortable and better about myself whenever we interact, and during our AFK periods I keep catching myself envisioning the two of us in a relaxed-comfortable-long-term sort of commitment scenario. It's so hard for me not to think about him for more than an hour! I just wish there was an easy way to know for sure what his stance was so that I could figure out what to do next and get back on the ground. I'm tired of getting close to tears at 2 in the morning worrying and fretting over this.