people at support group don't understand why I don't want to go night clubbing right now. I am tired, sore and in pain and worry. I like going to bed at 6pm and reading or having one of my cats cuddled up with me. I prefer more cultural stylish entertainment, I don't watch tv and doing courses is entertainment to me. i exercise and try to eat carefully. I like to enjoy a restful holiday over rowdy noise. I don't understand why people don't get it we all change with age. I am now 46 still childless and no husband or boyfriend and given up, I rarely look in the mirror or only to see if i am working the weights at exercise right. I don't care about looks anymore, just feeling fit. I like massages and facials and relax time over nightclubbing I gave up that short stunt of fun in 2003 when I didnt get what I wanted I stopped giving people what they wanted and just turned cold on everyone. I have to go to support group to learn how to be human and out of the nazi death camp zone.

people at support group don't understand why I don't want to go night clubbing right now. I am tired, sore and in pain and worry. I like going to bed at 6pm and reading or having one of my cats cuddled up with me. I prefer more cultural stylish entertainment, I don't watch tv and doing courses is entertainment to me. i exercise and try to eat carefully. I like to enjoy a restful holiday over rowdy noise. I don't understand why people don't get it we all change with age. I am now 46 still childless and no husband or boyfriend and given up, I rarely look in the mirror or only to see if i am working the weights at exercise right. I don't care about looks anymore, just feeling fit. I like massages and facials and relax time over nightclubbing I gave up that short stunt of fun in 2003 when I didnt get what I wanted I stopped giving people what they wanted and just turned cold on everyone. I have to go to support group to learn how to be human and out of the nazi death camp zone.
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