I told my wife that I'm also attracted to men before we got married and...

that I had had some experience. I alsotold her that I sometimes go to gay porn sites. She never asked for details, and I've never volunteered tham. I didn't expect to become completely straight when I married, but I do want to be faithful. The thing is, often when my wife goes to bed early, or I'm alone at home, I surf gay porn sites. It doesn't reduce my desire for my wife and we have a very active sex life (it sometimes seems to increase it - maybe out of my guilt). The worst - I have had two small encounters withmen since we've been married. Both were anonymous and didn't involve real sex (does half a blow job count?). I feel terrible about these incidents and don't understand how I could have done it. My wife would probably forgive me, but I wouldn't risk breaking her heart as I love her too much.  

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