I have fantasized about having sex with a straight cousin. I also gave another cousin a blow job while he was "sleeping". And once, I began to have sex with a different gay cousin until he woke up. After sliding all the way in and giving a few pumps, I chickened out. Worst of all, I now wish I hadn't stopped at all. Honestly my only regret was not doing more and fulfilling all my fantasies about male family members. Now I live an hour away and I continue to hit on my straight cousin through social media. I occasionally talk to the "sleeping" blowjob one but the one I entered doesn't speak to me anymore. Not sure if it's about that or for some other "wrong" I had done to him...

I have fantasized about having sex with a straight cousin. I also gave another cousin a blow job while he was "sleeping". And once, I began to have sex with a different gay cousin until he woke up. After sliding all the way in and giving a few pumps, I chickened out. Worst of all, I now wish I hadn't stopped at all. Honestly my only regret was not doing more and fulfilling all my fantasies about male family members. Now I live an hour away and I continue to hit on my straight cousin through social media. I occasionally talk to the "sleeping" blowjob one but the one I entered doesn't speak to me anymore. Not sure if it's about that or for some other "wrong" I had done to him...
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