so this is true, joyce was talking about isa*** her daughter masturbating objects around the house and she would allow her to walk around nude during our so called therapy sessions, and it just wasn't helping me, all it was doing was bringing back old open wounds and hurting me and I do contribute all that and her abuse picking on me relentlessly all the time to my nervous breakdown that no one seemed to notice. I tried to just ignore it when she was running around nude it was not that as the big deal, it was just a child, it didn't do much for me other then put memories in my head and distress me at university. It felt abusive on me in my early 20s single and a virgin and looking for a man who would be stronger then me. now all I hear is joel oolstein and don't reily on others. and god is all you need. yeh. but sometimes it is lonely. like fiona said, I don't have to ask, I just go buy my perfume and clothes and holidays and workshops and courses and I drop out of a lot and have fights with teachers over things and unprofessional veniputure and I don't recommend weekend things in that because they will kill you or if they cause a hematona you can't sue. and I abused the shit out of a company that gave my mum one the blood was running down her arm, that is not a but where is it getting me, everyone things I am stupid and I even do. furthermore, is that is not how its done. I feel so upset that I have made so many enemies since doing a policing diploma because its just hard finding friends who are not criminal. what the fuck am I doing all this shit for? where is the work and money and then some shit doctor can abuse and insult me saying "too late for babies now, you shouldn't even try with all that scaring and it could go cancer down there now and it will be too tight and painful but OH YOU CAN WORK, WORK WORK WORK, WORK BUT NOTHING ELSE" AND SMIRKED. NOT FUNNY FOREIGN ^UNT!