Two years ago my best friend moved to Canada. My best friend moved away to college. And I'm so lonely these days. I have a boyfriend, who is very close to me, but it's so hard not to smother him.Few months after she felt i hooked up with her older sisters boyfriend. Their 7 year relationship was on the rocks and nearly over. I don't have anyone to talk to, go places with or anything... It's so horrible. And he has friends that still live here that he goes out and does stuff with... and I have no one.I really fell for this boy. and it seemed as though he liked me but he never wanted to date me. still for two years we continued to hook up. I'm so lonely.... as I have pretty much been my entire life I always felt guilty about not telling my best friend. I don't like keeping things from her. but i know if i tell her i will lose her forever. I can never let that happen. i don't know what to do to stop feeling guilty. i feel like a horrible best friend. I know i should stop seeing this boy but i like him so much its so hard to do. ANy advice or anything that could help? But now it's only worse. I hate my life. Sometimes I just want to have fantasies of having someone else.