my parents even rang them at russos and said why are you bullying my daughter? she always turns up for job interviews but for a few when I was sick or the day I literally got lost walking in a new place to get to a job interview and I literally had a panic attack in this bush area and was afraid of being attacked. and they were even ignoring doctors letters, like hopsitals - I had 3 gp's letters trying to admit me into normal hospital when I had a mastoid infection and they said they would only put me in a psychiatritic section and I would have to be a compulsary patient which does not make sense and there has been a huge investigation into certain psychiatric hospitals, one doctor who interviewed me didn't even sound like a genuine doctor it (and I am sorry if that offend anyone) but it didn't look like a woman or a man, was so rude to me calling me simple and I was not passing law at university because I lacked the IQ to pass rather then all the childhood bullying and sexual abuse and all the bullying at russos and colleges and being bashed and abused by woman over men. and being raped, how can this foreign doctor say that when everybody on this planet knows that bullying does impare learning over time it can make anyones work performance or academic performance fail and suffer. no husband, always being bashed over guys, then being raped, having abusive therapists who don't know what the god dam hell they are doing. joyce said to me "no man would ever love me til I got down literaly on my hands and knees and barked like a dog" and I was acting it out she was saying I had welfare mentality getting austudy and I should be a prosititute and when Iwas working in a place where a prostitute had been murdered all she could say was I had to have sex out of anger to overcome my abuse issues as a child, every therapist I have spoken to has said that is evil talk. russos started bullying me calling me lazy and yet later said I was one of their more honest job seekers, and they kept sending me for jobs like truck driver (I don't have a licence) and hardware assistant when there were over 6 men in the room that could have done that job better then most women. they were treating me as if I had no academic ability and no skills to work, they had on woman bully me to the point I told them off and my doctor said what they were doing was bullying me not letting me exercise or stick to my diet and not allowing me personal time, I had to show over 25 jobs I applied for each week. my father used to literally have scrap books he kept all of them in and there are certain people in australia being bullied from work or having work or education and personal life or love life, only the workers are allowed sex. and if you have a more obvious disability or black you are more likely to get work then a single white women with a unseen disability. I was just bullied by other disability people, in churches, choirs, party plan nutrimetics - where this crazy sally woman drink drives and runs red lights and verbally abuses none stop and my doctor literally told me to tell her "if manish women like you on the pill for the last 30 years didn't keep getting married all the time - 3 husband and 3 kids to as many men, then maybe there would be opportunities for women like me", and sally has no ability to see the harm she did to me, she made me ill and she has no right bullying people in the nutrimetics, she is making the company look bad with her drinking and their alcoholic culture and bullying new people. sally is so manlike and nasty there is just nothing nice to say about her. she is a woman that has been on the pill for 30 years and having babies selfishly always getting married as the hotty bride when she is not a nice personal at all. she does not care, she makes out its about the people but its not. its about selling. sally caused me to have heart pain and ear infection speeding in her car with the windows down. you don't need to bully people to that point. this day after day and night after night of why haven't you got customers and parties booked, yet I had a fashion show booked and I can't help it if people won't buy from me, its because its me that they won't buy, its like my dad was black listed from work after some famous footballers spiked his drinks in the office and he was found unconscious on the floor this country works by who is the biggest bully and doctors and bosses and the navy has a rape culture that all women have experienced this rape culture if you be honest with yourself as a women you have been bullied and raped by them. its just a fact. it goes in universities, hospitals and everywhere, its getting worse infact, some are even killing people. driving people insane to either be bullies, because sooner or later if you have been bullied enough you will bully back to gain your ground, you will be forced to by the other bullies to maintain that bullying culture. and its the same with these job networks they are bullying people to the point of suicide and murder and pushing drugs to get work and its just morally so wrong. that is not what god intended for us. the churches are bullying blacks and women and men. its done in a very covert way but its going on.

my parents even rang them at russos and said why are you bullying my daughter? she always turns up for job interviews but for a few when I was sick or the day I literally got lost walking in a new place to get to a job interview and I literally had a panic attack in this bush area and was afraid of being attacked. and they were even ignoring doctors letters, like hopsitals - I had 3 gp's letters trying to admit me into normal hospital when I had a mastoid infection and they said they would only put me in a psychiatritic section and I would have to be a compulsary patient which does not make sense and there has been a huge investigation into certain psychiatric hospitals, one doctor who interviewed me didn't even sound like a genuine doctor it (and I am sorry if that offend anyone) but it didn't look like a woman or a man, was so rude to me calling me simple and I was not passing law at university because I lacked the IQ to pass rather then all the childhood bullying and sexual abuse and all the bullying at russos and colleges and being bashed and abused by woman over men. and being raped, how can this foreign doctor say that when everybody on this planet knows that bullying does impare learning over time it can make anyones work performance or academic performance fail and suffer. no husband, always being bashed over guys, then being raped, having abusive therapists who don't know what the god dam hell they are doing. joyce said to me "no man would ever love me til I got down literaly on my hands and knees and barked like a dog" and I was acting it out she was saying I had welfare mentality getting austudy and I should be a prosititute and when Iwas working in a place where a prostitute had been murdered all she could say was I had to have sex out of anger to overcome my abuse issues as a child, every therapist I have spoken to has said that is evil talk. russos started bullying me calling me lazy and yet later said I was one of their more honest job seekers, and they kept sending me for jobs like truck driver (I don't have a licence) and hardware assistant when there were over 6 men in the room that could have done that job better then most women. they were treating me as if I had no academic ability and no skills to work, they had on woman bully me to the point I told them off and my doctor said what they were doing was bullying me not letting me exercise or stick to my diet and not allowing me personal time, I had to show over 25 jobs I applied for each week. my father used to literally have scrap books he kept all of them in and there are certain people in australia being bullied from work or having work or education and personal life or love life, only the workers are allowed sex. and if you have a more obvious disability or black you are more likely to get work then a single white women with a unseen disability. I was just bullied by other disability people, in churches, choirs, party plan nutrimetics - where this crazy sally woman drink drives and runs red lights and verbally abuses none stop and my doctor literally told me to tell her "if manish women like you on the pill for the last 30 years didn't keep getting married all the time - 3 husband and 3 kids to as many men, then maybe there would be opportunities for women like me", and sally has no ability to see the harm she did to me, she made me ill and she has no right bullying people in the nutrimetics, she is making the company look bad with her drinking and their alcoholic culture and bullying new people. sally is so manlike and nasty there is just nothing nice to say about her. she is a woman that has been on the pill for 30 years and having babies selfishly always getting married as the hotty bride when she is not a nice personal at all. she does not care, she makes out its about the people but its not. its about selling. sally caused me to have heart pain and ear infection speeding in her car with the windows down. you don't need to bully people to that point. this day after day and night after night of why haven't you got customers and parties booked, yet I had a fashion show booked and I can't help it if people won't buy from me, its because its me that they won't buy, its like my dad was black listed from work after some famous footballers spiked his drinks in the office and he was found unconscious on the floor this country works by who is the biggest bully and doctors and bosses and the navy has a rape culture that all women have experienced this rape culture if you be honest with yourself as a women you have been bullied and raped by them. its just a fact. it goes in universities, hospitals and everywhere, its getting worse infact, some are even killing people. driving people insane to either be bullies, because sooner or later if you have been bullied enough you will bully back to gain your ground, you will be forced to by the other bullies to maintain that bullying culture. and its the same with these job networks they are bullying people to the point of suicide and murder and pushing drugs to get work and its just morally so wrong. that is not what god intended for us. the churches are bullying blacks and women and men. its done in a very covert way but its going on.
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I have a problem. I have had many girlfriends in my life, but I only ever passionately fell head-over-heels in love with one. We met 15 years ago, when I was in my late 20s and she was in her early 20s. We were simply perfect for each other, we loved each other, and we would definitely have got married if it wasn't for one major problem. She was already married and had a small child. When her stupid religious parents learnt she was pregnant, they forced her to marry against her will. This was to save face and stop their family being shamed. By doing that, her parents ruined her life, and maybe mine. We were only together for about one year, but what an intense and passionate year for both of us. We were best friends. We made each other laugh. We made love incessantly, it was the best sex I had ever had and to this day it still remains the best I have ever had. I begged her to leave her husband and come to me. I promised her the world. I would have had no problem being a father to her child. Money shouldn't be a problem no matter how rich or poor a couple is, but I was actually quite well off, so money was definitely not a problem. I told her I would do whatever it took to be with her. We could start again in a new city. I could completely change my life. I didn't care, all I wanted was to be with her. Actually, I was a little bit too desperate. Ok, maybe quite a lot too desperate! But I had never felt such passion before. She very nearly did it. We even looked around at houses and child care. We talked about it. But the family and religious pressure was too strong. Her parents (and her husband's parents) found out. They had a "meeting", like an intervention, and threatened her. It shits me that no-one (except me) cared about her happiness, they only cared about "what the neighbours will say" and how they look to their friends. Talk about fucked up priorities (excuse the language). She disappeared. 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