the other night I made a coffee salted caramel pudding with a chocolate and espresso glaze sauce over it and I never heard a complaint I was expecting to. he eats more then me and mum and yet we are the fat ones. we eat most lunches only 1 slice of bread or fruit salads or fish or baked beans with cayanne pepper and cheese or pumpkin seed breads occassionally. I have not even opened my mix master and I have a bread hook and I want to make some home made bread, mum is very good at that sort of thing and christmas puddings and I am ok at macaroons and florentines and cream swans and making chocolate but I love jellies and fruit a lot. we eat oats and chai and apples for breakfast but my dad has to have 2 breakfast sittings first with his mushrooms and egg and whatever left overs and then he eats what I leave because I only ever allow myself 1/3 of a cup of oats and apple for break fast and then I have a lot of water and oats expend. we love egg burgers and horseradish or just fresh raddish from the garden and mint from our garden. I do look forward to my camomile tea with cider vinegar and medicated honey and lime or lemon juice and all my vitamins, I made made up these drinks and I made my dad drink a seaweed green shake the other day with chocolate coconut water. it was bloody awful as most green powders are, this one has ancient sea minerals, artichoke and this and that with mint and apple flavour. "

when I was 7 years old she shoved a baby;s bottle brush down my throat for swearing and copying the paedophile who was always swearing and saying dirty things to me. my mother denies doing this, every so often her watch glass breaks and ends up in my food causing me pain, I am sick of my abusive family, my father often grits his teeth waving fists at me and appears to hate his two daughters who came out and told about his uncle who molested us and him. my brother is very abusive towards me and my sister is also very violent and abusive towards me. I have a breaking point and needs too. all my sister does is get married all the time and my brother seems to think he is MR BIG in a career which a huge pay cheque which my sister and I have never been allowed to have. I fear for my health and safety in the long term. I can't tell people that my father is a server alcoholic just like his mother was. my mother is very aggressive and has been violent to me and so can my dad be. they often pass off every complaint I have about neighbors or for some reason my mother was very protective of Dr L who was being quite rude to me, while he did help me with my illness he was also rude and untrusting of my description of symptoms, I have also experienced this with D W who every time I see him he charges a fortune to be told rubbish and how OLD I am, I told my therapist I was considering not going back to dr W if he because of his comments to me insulting me which are unwanted and unneeded and not right from a doctor with morals, once again while he is friendly enough there is a degree of flippant insults that offend and are un-needed. I see Dr t briefly once a month and I am grateful to him. I told my therapist who is much older then this other surgeon who keeps going on about how old I am that he must think old and want me to think old because my therapist is very opposite and even other doctors I have seen tell me not to think old being 40 is not old-old! and that surgeon is older then me? my therpist agreed and I said I might look for another speicalist surgeon who won't speak to me like that and he agreed. I am rarely taken seriously by police or doctors or government officers if I complain about abuse at the local Hospital or by paramedics and I am not an alcoholic or druggy and I think I would have to be one of their easier going and complying and obedient patients when they ask me to do things but I do not appreciate their verbal bullying and put downs. a lot of the time when people speak to me they are very abusive and I went through this as a child at the catholic school in Ipswich and other places and I have a breaking point too, and I was always a polite and easy going student with teachers always made a point of getting on well with people and I get sick of my feelings and my needs and my experiences being minimized or being accused of being a liar. one teacher was always calling me retarded at school and she was also doing this to my sister and other students on a regular basis. my brother's godparents one was a nazi in ww2 in Kassel Germany (they were rich medical doctors/pharmacy company in germany) and knew Hitler and they treated us kids like we were crap. it took a while for my parents to believe me about this. We were told he committed war crimes in Russia and dated a movie star in german who were nazi and a whole heap of lies that we were always low-minded and poor to them and I seen their kids ruin a lot of parties with their sexual dominance and controlling. all these nazis do it treat us like we are mentally retarded and they get people to bully us. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xxoabyEUJas I went through very similar things and so did my sister, doctors were making us wait for ages and making out we did not have illnesses, later my sister was found to have fibroids on her uterus and other issues and I was being ignored with middle ear and heart pain. I don't have anyone to talk to other then my doctors to help me, and I sometimes feel I am just not getting the support and help I really deserve or need. I don't expect people to believe me anymore because few people ever have.

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