I feel pity for someone who is so bored with all there is to do in life to just stalk me.

i hate it when you to cafes and you ask for your order and like 3 or 5 times they got the order wrong and still brang out the wrong drink so in the end I said "look just give me the bloody green tea then I fucking drink it" to my mother after the staff got it wrong that many times! I mean really! like last year I had to remind the hair dresser to do things i paid for and it cost me over $150 for shit zero rubbish nothing. not paying that again.

i hate it when you to cafes and you ask for your order and like 3 or 5 times they got the order wron...

in 2007 -2009 I had this vomitting out of the blue it would hit with dizziness and I swear that carrot cake tasted better on the way up then it did on the way down. I would on the bus and have to get out at any place to vomit, or in a shop or car and have to run and vomit and it was terrible illness. awful. the doxy didn't help much either. I had 3 years of doxy. til I couldn't take it or most medications. people wonder why I will not take anti-inflamatories at all or codeine. but I just won't touch the stuff they made me too ill. and I will not take that fucking indural. its a disgusting drug. it makes you so weak and like your heart is gonna stop at any time. fuck that. and it wasn't working on me. the doctors got my records mixed up with another patient with the same name, that was when I knew it was time to leave that place! sick of other peoples incompetence. you won't last a second at tafe! with that incompetence!

in 2007 -2009 I had this vomitting out of the blue it would hit with dizziness and I swear that carr...

indural is a beta blocker but they use it with another therapy for cancer and my doctor kept torturing me saying he was worried I had a cancer tumor in the bladder when I was on indural it was awful. I had to have so many ultrasounds on my uturus and ovaries and kidneys and I had a ovary that was enlarged and I still get a lot of pain there. he was always doing urine blood counts all the time cuz I wouldn't go and have blood tests but I am traumatised over them. my veins collapse too much and they can't take blood with me, I need to be with a good blood taker who can relax me. everyone is stressing me out and money worries. I can see why some people do cause harm over financial worries it has been the story of my life, how to provide for this family, my parents as they getting old and useless and difficult. and I am all alone. I doubt that will change. I can't see any man loving me or marrying me now or having kids. its just not going to happen. I will never own a home or graduate and if I got a job I would be forever paying back hecs debt and never get ahead. that is why I won't go back to university in the old fashion. I have to go interstate soon for a talk with something with a health issue and hope to see a course college there while I am there but I doubt I can afford it all. I need more financial help. I want to work unlike most people. I have had everything valuable taken from me heartlessly. my car and licence was taken going on medications. no one cares about my needs and feelings and dreams. I am a lone ranger as always. some of us were born hateful children and I was one of them. cursed and persecuted by a molesting pedo and I have to carry the guilt and shame for it for the rest of my life ! nothing can be done. i have been suffering and i will be suffering and no one cares at all. and I care about no one either back. and I can make others suffer too! god can harm all the people who made/make me suffer.

indural is a beta blocker but they use it with another therapy for cancer and my doctor kept torturi...