I am wasting my life here and it feels like no one cares.

i hate my life and my depression is slowly killing me. My job stresses me out and i have to travel far to and from work plus look after my elderly nan. My mum has been diagnosed with a degenerative progressive neurological disease and she is only going to get worse. her health is bad and i need to care for her more and more. I was stressed so i decided to hand my notice in so i can be my mum full time carer and look after nan as well. i thought it was the best plan so i could care for the ones i love and be brave. but now i'm dreading the day i have to leave work i have made a terrible decision i should have carried on struggling with care and work. i'm so scared i'm just going to end up more unhappy with this decision. i am so afraid. i left a good job. i dont like this uncertainty of it all. i'm scared i wish i was not so hasty. this decision was for he good of the famliy but i do not like change. im afraid of regrets i have so many and i dont want this to be one of them.

i hate my life and my depression is slowly killing me. My job stresses me out and i have to travel f...

My birthday is tomorrow, and for the first time in my life I'll spend it all alone. My family is 200+ miles away, and my father just told me he is moving to california tomorrow. It is my first year in college and I have social anxiety that stopped me from going out and making friends when everyone else was. Now everybody is cliqued up and I am all alone. The worst part is knowing I still have a semester left in this hellhole. I used to have a 6 pack from varsity sports and be ripped and confident, now I am pudgy and alone.

My birthday is tomorrow, and for the first time in my life I'll spend it all alone. My family is 200...

I paid my own evening school so i could achive more in my job, but this school costed to much money, now i got so many bills to pay, i dont know how, my bank account is 3000 euros in debt, its not that much actually, i get 1500 every month, so i could get out of it in like a half year without to much of a sacrifice, but now my paycheck is 2 days late and i got an awfull lot of extra bills because i couldnt pay them in time, its getting more and more, and more and more nervous, and i hate it. Money shouldnt rule my mind, but it does since this fucking school, i hope it was worth it in the end, but i dont think so. i wanna tell this to someone, but i dont know who, i got a new boyfriend but i dont wanna load this on him, i wanna talk to my dad but if its getting worse he will lend me money, and i dont want that, because my 8 years older brother does that everytime they see, i dont want my dad to think of me the same, cause i see this is hurting him, i want him to see me as an adult.

I paid my own evening school so i could achive more in my job, but this school costed to much money,...