Killed a Chicken

Good child. I've begun to really resent my position as the "favorite" of my aunt's nephews and nieces. She has no kids, and my mom isn't really in the picture, so we've become surrogates for each other. It's great, but now things are changing. I hate having to put on this fake act of being an overachieving, well-mannered girl. I want to make mistakes, fall in love, etc. But I can't. Anything I do could be used against me and she'll label me as another "disappointment." What's worse is that some of my cousins and siblings have begun to turn against me because of it. I haven't talked to my oldest brother in over a year (he used to be her favorite before they got into a big fight), and he hasn't responded to my attempts to get back in touch. My other cousins don't talk to me as much anymore either. I really wish I could just go back to the old days where were all one big family and it didn't matter who was the "golden child."

Good child. I've begun to really resent my position as the "favorite" of my aunt's nephews and niec...

The more I feel loved, the more I hate myself I realize all my coworkers love me more than my own family. My boss tells me all the time that I work too hard knowing that I barely eat or sleep. Usually I work straight through my breaks. Lately he's forced me to actually take a break. A few times he's made me food or bought some for me and told me to eat it. Also I've run into him at the gym and he's seen me running my heart out. Any time this happens he always comes over and tells me to calm down and relax a bit because I don't need to be doing all this. Of course I turn the treadmill back on as soon as he walks away. It's just so weird hearing this vs. my parents who always call me fat and lazy. Then there's this guy there I work with who does the same. Any time a guest is rude to me he'll always defend me. For example one day my mom was there and called me fat. He didn't know it was my mom at the time (they hadn't met yet) and he put his hand on my stomach and said "Excuse me, ma'am, were you talking to her or the baby?". He knows about my family situation and I can tell him anything. Every time we work together he says he'll drive me home. Even last night when I was there just to see a manager who works once a month he tried convincing me to stay another four hours saying that I'd be better off there anyway and it's be more time away from my family. well, Listen lady..There is no replacement of Parents in this world. IT is totally normal for parents to call their kids whatever they like..after all they are your parents.. so whats the problem with that.. if they ay you fat & lazy ..so what ? why can't you see love behind those words ? every other man who care for you or love you ..doesn't ncessarily means he is a true honest guy. most of them just wants your compnay..may be for s** or lesser something.. You can never compare Parents love with anyother's .. they don't need in thing back from you in return. I just feel so guilty that I'm begining to love them more than my real family. Plus I also feel like I don't deserve them at all. think about it.! stupidI hate it. I'm female, and one of my good friends is also female. We're close. We decided to start dating, then broke it off. There's a pair like us in my year, both girls, both dated and both broke it off. My good friend is a wreck, and she knows it. She has a boyfriend, still has feelings for me, is in love with her hated ex, and kissed one of the girls in my year. That girl-in-my-year's ex/friend yelled at the girl-in-my-year. I feel like doing that, too.Lindsay I want to eat Lindsay too, Same here. With Lindsey Lohan, I'd even take your sloppy seconds. Or thirds, or wherever we are in the count now. Damn, she is sooooooo fine!!!!ROTTEN, baby!!

The more I feel loved, the more I hate myself I realize all my coworkers love me more than my own f...

I found myself in very similar situation and I got my brains stomped on. Be VERY careful here oh you're going to get out. I know you can't wait to find better help and be gone and I would want to, maybe backing off a bit would help everyone when you leave leave him a nasty letter. Posted 9 hours ago

I found myself in very similar situation and I got my brains stomped on. Be VERY careful here oh you...