Estoy muy arrepentida porque he visto páginas porno y he tenido

people are only going to hate you for your privilege and money and prestige - that was why I deliberately lived like a nun all through my teens and young adult life because I knew people in this town hated us for what we had or what they thought we had in winning lotto and the flower farms etc - and what you saw was all fake. I could tell without speaking or within a few minutes and I make up my mind and judge people a lot and once I suspect a shithead I never trust again. that is why I have dumped a lot of doctors and a lot of friends and a lot of men, I dumped relatives and business friends once they betrayed me and I never forgave, I was never ever a forgiving person deep down but I think the catholic nuns had too much of a learning on me because they taught us under the scope all the time of bullshit forgivenss and this rubbish and I made the mistake of feeling sorry for too many people who abused me when I should have punished and hated them with deep contempt and did back to them what they did to me. I didn't learn to mirror quickly enough now. I have been rude to people and said very sarcastic things sometimes when I can get away with it even in public openly! I have learnt to play these certain dirty pscyholigists females and certain doctors who dont live up to the standards I expect and they know what the world expects of them, they take the oath to do no harm, so it primary remains with them to be obediant to the word or god teachers them will get them as they have played me and yeh you learn to look with contempt and re-evaluated the scum around you.

people are only going to hate you for your privilege and money and prestige - that was why I deliber...

I do awful things to anyone now like if I get blocked on a site I will up and block a dozen people from my facebook or email deliberately to show them how it feels. if I am spoken to rudely or told to go away I do it to others. if a doctor dumps me I go dump a few psychologists to show them how it feels to be dumped. anything people do to me now I just do back to others either randomly or as available or deliberantly. to transfer the feeling and intention and hurt over. I repeat over and over things people say to me to others. I copy my sister rose and other people like joyce or what ever character I want to be for the day. I never answer my mobile all these phone calls I never return for years to make others see how it feels to be ignored and blocked. do it to me and I find someone else to do it back to !

I do awful things to anyone now like if I get blocked on a site I will up and block a dozen people f...

you don't understand those things are not available to me. if I can't do everything I need for myself then its not available to me. I can't get myself pregnant by self-insemination so having a baby and relationship is not available to me. cuz I always knew from the time I was a child the buck had to stop with me! so if I couldn't do it for myself it was not allowed to me. that was the way my mother bought us up to think like that.

you don't understand those things are not available to me. if I can't do everything I need for mysel...