I have this urge to pull and pick at my hair. I search for the right one until I feel a split end or slight imperfection with my fingertips. Then I chop it or pull it off. And it's so hard to resist even if it's embarrassing. I had short hair since junior high when it all started. I envy the girls with beautiful long healthy hair. The anxiety and depression that accompanies this disorder is always there. I've lost hope in medications. I'm scared to tell my boyfriend about it because he tells me he likes girls that have long hair. Does anyone else struggle with trichostillomania? Will it ever heal?

Abuse Blasphemy

I have this urge to pull and pick at my hair. I search for the right one until I feel a split end or slight imperfection with my fingertips. Then I chop it or pull it off. And it's so hard to resist even if it's embarrassing. I had short hair since junior high when it all started. I envy the girls with beautiful long healthy hair. The anxiety and depression that accompanies this disorder is always there. I've lost hope in medications. I'm scared to tell my boyfriend about it because he tells me he likes girls that have long hair. Does anyone else struggle with trichostillomania? Will it ever heal?

20

Next post in 20s

Will redirect automatically

This confession was shared anonymously on i4giveu.com

More from 'Abuse' category

this nig was telling me i should become a taxidriver and leave australia to find work an i don't have a licence since the stroke and rape from a violent dirty revolting person who is just like ron poachier who i never asked for and never wanted to know. i am sick of the insults from nigs and horsey dressup toads of women.

this nig was telling me i should become a taxidriver and leave australia to find work an i don't hav...

I am worried about money tomorrow with the vet and I had to give up a overseas holiday and all I do for the past 20 years is apply for jobs, study and looking nice didn't make people like me or employ me, flossing didn't make people want to date me either. like all the money have paid out in my health fund and everyone elses holidays in the last number of years and all I get is a miserly discount of $600-800 per person per night for quad cruise is not to bad to the whitsundays is the best the world can return me. not a job, not a husband or degree or help me with my much at all, all the vet bills at the pet hospital and stuff I should own the half of 2 vet hospitals. with they had more of them too.

I am worried about money tomorrow with the vet and I had to give up a overseas holiday and all I do ...

I used to strangle my both of my cats despite telling myself multiple times that I'd stop. I'd also bite their legs and nape, a few times hard enough to draw blood. I also would throw them at my bed and occasionally trap them under my plastic see-through waste bin, sit on top of it, and watch them freak out until I felt bad enough and let them out. Worse part is, I told myself I would never do it again after my first cat, Nico, died (unrelated to any of this, he was an outdoor cat and got lost and froze to death out in a storm) and then when another cat walked into my life things were going fine for a few years and then I fell back into those terrible habits again. She was very young when we found her, and eventually after doing it enough times she'd press herself close to me to get me to stop. Eventually I quit for good and I think she was very forgiving towards me. I'm almost certain that my mom knew and probably my brother too. Also, I've verbally told this to one other person, just because I think it's something at least one person in my life knows about me, no matter how heinous. Also that whole thing about karma kind of rings true. For all the horrible things I did, she died painfully young at the age of 4 from a kidney infection and I held her in my arms as she left me. Probably the most grief-stricken moment of my life. Definite guarantee I'll never do any of this again. Props if you actually read all of this, need to eventually tell my boyfriend too, I'm not very good at keeping secrets anyways...

I used to strangle my both of my cats despite telling myself multiple times that I'd stop. I'd also ...