I just realised I don't hate myself its really others I hate.

i have never had a bed/sex ego about me, I was always reserved and shy about that but talked more about dates, haivng a fun time dancing and kissing and talk about careers and babies and what matters yet they got bored of me. so I decided to do it back to a lot of men and play a male boofoon clown at them when I hit 27 rejected over and over see how they like it back. next stop is to threaten to murder someone for a man like a grrl lesbot did to me. this woman tried to run me over in her car for this american guy, is that normal? joyce said it was normal that some women go crazy when in love, so maybe that is where I went wrong uh?

i have never had a bed/sex ego about me, I was always reserved and shy about that but talked more ab...

why do nice guys suddenly go stupid when you tell them you like them they play games unreliable, make fun of everything trying to impress you with their clown talents or so called maturity over porn and masturbation and sex but deep down they are impressed by money only not even looks matter to them.

why do nice guys suddenly go stupid when you tell them you like them they play games unreliable, mak...

I am studying accounting and arts and law subjects and some medical subjects very similar as before but moving on, I won't explain it all to anyone ever again when I was in a arts/law degree that was going to take at least 7 years full time to complete I was bashed and raped and had a stroke bullied and made fun of so I don't tell people now all of what I am doing I deliberately act vague so they are never too sure you learn from your past naivety when young. so my pride was wounded to fail more then half way through the double degree and the weird thing was I knew all the legal stuff from college days better so it must have been the quality of teachers in readan as well that made the difference. or maybe it was me, somewhere I lost myself and a few broken hearts over men and lost confidence and had so many nervous breakdowns from being assaulted just walking to university or attacked while studying and no real help. I had to drag myself back up, with a lot of physical illness and loneliness.

I am studying accounting and arts and law subjects and some medical subjects very similar as before ...