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I never know when men are attracted to me. I never knew when they liked me, because most ones that liked me I didn't like them and we had nothing in common, they would be uneducated never bothered to get off their ass to go to university or work in a office job, or buy a car or do much with themselves, I have had a lot of stupid ugly old boofheads with no class and no academic back ground, and their intests are like the drive through at KFC and stupid yobo stuff I am not. and I look at them and think "what the hell would make you think I want to go out with you?" I met one guy who dropped out of university and he was very very good looking and he went back later to study like me. he was sort of like me he had had health issues and emotional problems the whole time. but I never went out with him only talk to him on transport. weird men working in the railway would do stupid things to me as if like I was strange for crossing my arms and say stupid things at me like they were old and seemed to think I was stupid even bothering to go to university. saying "SO WHAT DO YOU DO? A BACHELOR DEGREE HEY, OH SO YOU WANT TO BE A BACHELOR DO YOU?" and make fun of me like as if that would win them a like tick with me. one guy after I was in the car accident literally insulted me and called me a "Vegetable" just because I was sitting playing a computer game on the weekend on the floor with my cousins. my sisters first husbands family were extremely abusive towards us and they were all weird and arrogant, the cousins and aunties and sibblings were all weird so we up and left and didn't stay for any food after a number of insulting parties where we were made fun of about unemployment or education or money etc. only they were important and would openly make fun of us, so did my brothers godparents kids and my older cousins make fun of us all the time. I really should have done it back like my therapists told me to, but I just told them I was sick of their abuse and set strong boundaries and wish for a no communication code with them or ken carey and girls like jackie and katy martin who bashed me at school and nick and his shifty drunk frump attacking me bashing I just told them I didn't want that in my life. other people in alp and that dam mongrel tonya who went around saying I gave her bills tablets she was a blonde bitch. she needed a good kick up the bum, she hit into me as well and she was a spoilt crazy bitch who married young and was a spoilt nob. I didn't do a thing to these idiots. there is so many people I just don't want around me. I have to be extra selective now about the company I keep, I am usually caring and non-judgmental but tell you this much. I believe that I was set up to tell anita off and margie made it clear to me from day 1 that their choir wouldn't be for me, she said "you might come to 3 lessons and think this is not for me" which said to me "I DONT WANT YOU HERE FUCK OFF" which was similar to anita's approach as well and a few therapist like at evolve and cause and effucked, and restore- mary was rude to me, as was mirranda. I never judges anna-maria for her past but she went weird and I couldn't cope with her crap! I had too much issues of my own and she was just out of control flirting acting crazy and I will not be around women once they do this I avoid them, I learnt this from my days around brigette, mum and others know I won't tolerate it at all around me, I just up and leave when girls act stupid and sexual and bitchy and boucey and weirdo and I won't have a thing to do with women like that. mary at retore offended me saying I don't need to ask men to meet my parents on first date, sorry my rules are my rules, how she runs her life is not my problem, how I run my life is my choice and my business. I am a no non-sense no messing around and playing funny buggers with me sort of person. and I could be tempted to up and hit someone I have not done that but after katy robinson bashed me I hope someone bashed her back and she should keep out of other peoples business like kelly who causes trouble everywhere she goes pretending to be a friend when she is just a back stabber. I met a lot of women like her, even worse ones. I have met a lot of assholes in my time and its a wonder I am a nice person because I should have been a asshole a long time ago. but I can still hate people.

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the thing that came as a shock to me is just because someone is a doctor or ambulance person doesn't mean they don't have criminal intent in their actions to you. it took a lot for me to see this for myself. I used to have blind trust in doctors, my fave doctor who was a good doctor was Dr Frazer and he never ever once put me down for having depression or being sexually abused or that I couldn't afford medical bills all the time, unlike some other doctors. but there are not a lot of doctors around like him. I mean today they want you to come for 1 item per visit, when I used to see dr f he was like always following up on last visit and checking meds and seeing how it went even minor things always never once had to remind him to check BP or anything. I have not had as good a doctor as him since. he was a great doctor. but I don't have faith in medical people now after being bullied and abused by some. its not their place to abuse patients. if they want to do that go join the prison system or the death row prisoners in usa don't bother doing this job if you don't like actually caring about people who most times are afraid. some where out and out pig dirty rude to me, and I will never forget that feeling of betrayal. its not nice at all. you might think your funny and rich but there are richer clever and more handsome men out there then you. its like ken, he really thought he was something hot and he was so weak and cowardly he didn't even call medical aide or a fireman or police or someone when I collapsed. the guy is a loser user! or the worst kind said one police officer to me.

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my specialist said yana and other stupid people don't know what they are talking about when saying my antidepressants and calmatives are illegal drugs, because they are not illegal drugs. I don't shoot up or take illegal drugs and I am sick of this homocide against me. sick of it. I could murder the people who have done this to me. the police should do a mercy killings on my behalf to these torturers. I don't have to tolerate their senile stupid talk.

my specialist said yana and other stupid people don't know what they are talking about when saying ...