so 2 wedding veils came and I bought a vintage scarf because I don't like a lot of modern scarfs I like the vintage designs more. I swear I ordered 1 of the wedding veils in satin white and one in lace detailed ivory but it came white so I guess I shouldn't complain. if I send it back I won't see it again like the pants I ordered. I have had a headache neck ache and back ache with rain and hobbling around in pain bent over, finally the stitches in my vagina are not hurting I mean the needle was painful the rest was ok but there was about 3-4 days bleeding I didn't expect from the surgery anyway, I have shoved needles in myself into my skin I just like the feeling of being in control the doctor said I handled it better then most would have. I just hope it is going to be ok. I have been in bed all this week but studying IT and legal subjects and signed me and my mum up to do some medical subjects because I signed her up for a psychology course and she completed her nutrition course as well. my mum came into the surgical room with me cuz I was so nervous. I asked her to come in with me. I didn't start shaking til I felt the stitches going in then I got the shakes and shivers.

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so 2 wedding veils came and I bought a vintage scarf because I don't like a lot of modern scarfs I like the vintage designs more. I swear I ordered 1 of the wedding veils in satin white and one in lace detailed ivory but it came white so I guess I shouldn't complain. if I send it back I won't see it again like the pants I ordered. I have had a headache neck ache and back ache with rain and hobbling around in pain bent over, finally the stitches in my vagina are not hurting I mean the needle was painful the rest was ok but there was about 3-4 days bleeding I didn't expect from the surgery anyway, I have shoved needles in myself into my skin I just like the feeling of being in control the doctor said I handled it better then most would have. I just hope it is going to be ok. I have been in bed all this week but studying IT and legal subjects and signed me and my mum up to do some medical subjects because I signed her up for a psychology course and she completed her nutrition course as well. my mum came into the surgical room with me cuz I was so nervous. I asked her to come in with me. I didn't start shaking til I felt the stitches going in then I got the shakes and shivers.

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