my argument is if I am so healthy and this is all in my mind, then how come we have this distress everytime I have to have blood tests with collapsing veins and I cry when they say we can't get any blood out? why? I have to lay down and I choose the more experienced blood takers and I won't have new vacum tubes at all they are too harsh on my veins. I can handle injections and local anasethic and surgery over blood tests I can handle I just got sick and tired of ambulance people jabbing me with canulas and blood sugar tests and heart monitors, and dam doctors. I have a lump at the moment I can feel I want to talk to the doctor about, sometimes I have had lumps come up under the arm pits in the lympth area and this one is in anoter area and feels like that needle that went in last surgery. I hate the whole thing. why am I bothering to even study rubbish I will never use anyway?

I am a babysitter nanny who wants some fucking fun on a cruise and world holiday wit a wealthy fast fun family 11-14 year - 2teen boys - outings included to the drive in movies and night drives to CBD myer centre tops, movies, dreamworld and wet n wild, brush walking and picnics in groups, night shows and concerts, putt putt golf etc 1990- baby boy of 4mths - 12mths (I was 17 looking after a neighbors child to give personal time to single mother day and evening, activities, walking in stroller, playing with toys and visiting his grandmother, feeding times with bottles etc, and solid foods, pets and garden play) , changing diapers, feed solids and bottle. bed time. 1986-1993 -girl and boy from 4mths -10years (from the age of 12 I would look after my cousins while mother was working activities on a farm and taking them to ice-skating shows at night, supermarket days out to town or bus trips, rna ekka, home activities and music, book reading, fireworks evening entertainment out with family/friends, prep food times) 1994-boy 4mths-12years (nephew while his mother was ill and working bottle feeding in evenings while parents were out, age of 4 long term live in care while mother was in hospital, planned activities like steam train ride and flower shows and parklands, weekends at gold coast or day southbank beach area etc and food prep, shopping and movies, planning toys and games, buying and arranging his clothing a lot and purchasing his toys as well), bath time and feeding. put to bed. 2001 -girl 1year- 6years (niece- while her mother was at college and work I was studying paralegal and part time babysit my niece, plan day trips out for her and eating meals, music and ice-skating shows, planting flowers and appreciation for beach and birds and walks to bush walks, movies and children's live shows, purchasing and planning clothing and toys often for her), sleep and using bathroom, parklands walks 1999-girl 10years evening work and some day time, while mother was working, activities, colouring in, home attending, attending a baby show. and more. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XZnHfxOKu1k&t=3s https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kj4-OxaAixI https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mcMh6GZoFC8 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HT7mcmjevdw https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M6p7k3bOv3U&t=1s https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WmUFXhqPSEw&t=4s I was good at something and have years of experience and now a nanny and nutrition courses etc and I need a job i need money and a life. and having a blue card is a good idea next but you know what, it doesn't mean you won't abuse kids or aged it just means you haven't yet and any police check can find that out. yeh so a bit shit happens while babysitting but so what. all the babyshows I ran raising money for vets and charities for animal shelters and cancer and to schools and https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4tDBSV1Clsk

I am a babysitter nanny who wants some fucking fun on a cruise and world holiday wit a wealthy fast ...