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this is something most of my friends at college and university and work could never understand that I can't afford the expense of socialising like normal people I don't get enough money even when I was a teen to afford drinking out. I used to get $174 a fortnight and I had to give my parents most of it and had just $50 to myself each fortnight. and i mean we have bills to pay, health insurance i had to get rid of and i can't afford all these bus fares and eating out all the time and I never shopped at Myer and brand names unless second hand. you know. I just can't afford to drink and piss money up a wall. besides I am so addicted to water or teas I drink that much I am obsessed with it. i have pets and i have to pay out that much in course fees and workshops and health treatments for me and my pet. do you fucking understand?

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this is something most of my friends at college and university and work could never understand that I can't afford the expense of socialising like normal people I don't get enough money even when I was a teen to afford drinking out. I used to get $174 a fortnight and I had to give my parents most of it and had just $50 to myself each fortnight. and i mean we have bills to pay, health insurance i had to get rid of and i can't afford all these bus fares and eating out all the time and I never shopped at Myer and brand names unless second hand. you know. I just can't afford to drink and piss money up a wall. besides I am so addicted to water or teas I drink that much I am obsessed with it. i have pets and i have to pay out that much in course fees and workshops and health treatments for me and my pet. do you fucking understand?
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