I'm a jerk to my ex's

told my husband before we got married that I would probably never give him a ******. He didn't really say anything but I could tell he was disappointed.Yet damn near every Saturday night, before we f***, he wants to eat out and it feels so good when we go out to a bar and pretend we are meeting for the first time and I am a prostitute and we love it when other women are interested in him at his singing gigs. I wonder what it would be like to giving him a threesome with some of his regulars at shows. My friend told me the only guy she ever went down on with a few friends, is her boyfriend, and she says the photos came out very good and keepsakes for them; pretty sweet at first.I mean I've thought about doing it before.On his birthday or one of his regulars birthdays, I'll tell myself I'll give him a try tonight soon. But something always comes up or I just blacken out.I feel bad that it goes down but I want it to be fun that we enjoy together and if a regular go down on him he likes. I let him f*** me and her t*** once, he told me it would be good and that he really would like it. But we having done it again since.I'm starting to think he was lying to make me feel good. He doesn't always tell me is regulars unless I go but what if I cause a brawl fight over him with my jealousy ? I want to give him a ****** and get it over with before a baby comes, but I just need someone to help me.

told my husband before we got married that I would probably never give him a ******. He didn't reall...

frank knows what he did to me was evil. I know it and he knows it, he never wrote that love letter to me. his sister or mother wrote it. because his actions were not congruent to the words of the letter. they were constantly contradictory. and that is evil. and i am glad i never waited around for him cuz i waited long enough after he got his job he just ignored me which i knew he would and i wanted better then him anyway. i wish i had of met him before rick and ken. ken, is not even included in the list of romantic involvements because as one therapist said "how can you call a man who assaulted you without your intention of wanting it and saying things like he wanted to tie you to the bed and rape you, and you said that made you question what he hell he was about and couldn't get away quick enough", i was left so confused bye frank and jordon and other men i really liked that i never even had sex with that i just stopped trying and looking cuz men stopped looking at me and treating me respectfully.

frank knows what he did to me was evil. I know it and he knows it, he never wrote that love letter t...

"Since I left you, I have been constantly depressed. My happiness is to be near you. Incessantly I live over in my memory your caresses, your tears, your affectionate solicitude. The charms of the incomparable Josephine kindle continually a burning and a glowing flame in my heart. When, free from all solicitude, all harassing care, shall I be able to pass all my time with you, having only to love you, and to think only of the happiness of so saying, and of proving it to you?"

"Since I left you, I have been constantly depressed. My happiness is to be near you. Incessantly I l...