I'm a jerk to my ex's

I am staying in a resort and I went down stairs in avo to see what the gym and sauna etc looked like and I was afraid to try them out. I might tomorrow and go outside tomorrow night at the pool if they let me but I have so much food up in my hotel rooms I could have a party, I wish we could meet someone nice who could love me, that would be exciting. I wish their bar was open that would nice to have a drink.

I am staying in a resort and I went down stairs in avo to see what the gym and sauna etc looked like...

we have a little balcony looking over some of the beach but I am too afraid to go into the surf for a swim but we go shopping. I would love a massage but the hot spa was nice. it is a really nice resort. But I feel so sad and in physical pain I have to hide it for my mother. I am going to another one and a european holiday I have to save more for and want a job so bad to help pay for it cuz if I don't do it now I might never. I desperately hope to meet a man from overseas with a lot more charm compared to most men I have met, the funny thing is we are in the resort were my mother went to see the uk queen and prince Philip waved at her when she was 20. I have cooked making salmon and we bought too much food.

we have a little balcony looking over some of the beach but I am too afraid to go into the surf for ...

I think I have some sort of crazy feelings for an old crush. I realize thinking and dreaming about others is no big deal in a relationship and I know I'd never cheat but dreaming about him for three months seems insane. However, it's also been almost two months since I've seen my ex-boyfriend. He told me he was sick but yet I caught him out with a friend. These crazy dreams could be just because I'm lonely and because of the fights I had with my ex. In my dreams he tells me he quit smoking and getting drunk and only wants me. I'm not trying to offend anybody who does these things but I don't do those things. Yesterday my dream was that I rode my bike in high heels to meet him near the mall. It's especially ironic because when I first met him he was taller then me. Now I'm taller.

I think I have some sort of crazy feelings for an old crush. I realize thinking and dreaming about o...