I needed an A

I know I am enough. I was good enough a ages ago and still am good enough for better men, better jobs, better house and income. I am not trying to talk it up I just know what I am worth and I refuse to feel guilty for expecting wage or dividend. I give so much. I wish I had more people to share my life with and I am much more choosi about who they are now.

I know I am enough. I was good enough a ages ago and still am good enough for better men, better job...

i went to the hospital today, which is always a way out experience, I wish I more nice experiences in hospitals. I still get upset near one hospital when I was really sick all I could see was the windows from the ambulance coming in terrified. I think ambulance people don't really know how terrified some people are.

i went to the hospital today, which is always a way out experience, I wish I more nice experiences i...

I have been (I guess you could say) in love with my guy friend for the majority of high school. It's a terrible situation, as I know the feelings are most likely never going to be returned. Over time he has 'warmed-up', but in the past he has inferred he's not interested. It's confusing though, he really does give mixed signals... He has lead me on to a certain degree. Our relationship is very on-off, whether we realize it all the time or not. However, once in a while I will get a crush on another boy of a period of time. I'm not all that concerned about it... I actually like the feeling of not being so 'grounded' to liking my friend...it's nice to feel almost 'free' I guess (as corny as that sounds) It's just I'm confused at how fast I can go from being infatuated with him to another boy I hardly know. Sometimes I look at him and see no flaws, even though he is far from 'perfect'. So how is it that a day later my feelings can flip? Whatever it is makes me confused and slightly worried. Recently that 'flip' has happened again... Although I feel as if it might have something to do with the way my friend has been treating me. When we are hanging out alone he seems open and honest and almost affectionate, but when his other friends are around he acts as if we barely know each other. I don't think it's fair that he does that, and I think it would be better to live without that kind of 'drama'. (I suppose it's drama!) But get this, the other boy I've found a sort of liking for possibly has a dissociative personality disorder. How do I get myself into these situations? Luckily, I don't know this tidbit for certain. I honestly have yet to talk to him one-on-one, but he is very attractive, and my best friend claims he is 'very nice'. (Although I have learned my lesson on those boys who are good looking! They certainly aren't all they appear sometimes!) About this boy though, I've seen him in the halls, etc. I've been trying to at least find out his name, just so I can feel somewhat reassured of a possibility (Although I doubt anything will work out) When I did ask my friends if they knew who he was 9by description) most of them didn't know! He's quite mysterious! The one friend who said a name which I just have a feeling is his, she laughed and said 'just kidding' as if he would be a joke to like. So what is it about him? It's frustrating to not know! He's actually a year below me. My best friend, who has talked to him, but doesn't know his name somehow, told me I should talk to him and just plainly say I think he's attractive. She insists I just go for it if I get the opportunity, which is very unlike me. I'm a pretty shy person in school, and it would be totally rogue of me to be so out there! Should I do something about this? My best friend claims he would be flattered and possibly interested in me too if I told him.... Of course I don't know his personality so I feel like it could be a mistake! I'm hoping this will all pan out soon. My horoscopes have been very keen on this topic... They've said 'it's a new year, a new time to finish what's happened in the past and resolve issues. Time to more forward!'. Of course that couldn't have been more generic, but it's motivational in some form nonetheless. I'm glad I got to vent that out... high school has proven to be more stressful than I ever suspected it would be! j

I have been (I guess you could say) in love with my guy friend for the majority of high school. It's...