Dirty Condoms

So me and my girlfriend have been fucking a lot lately...too much.  She gave me herpes and I felt really pissed that she didn't tell me.  i've had a lot of shit going on lately that's been fucking with my sleep.  The next time she wanted to fuck I was a little aggravated.  I wrapped sandpaper all over my dick and then turned off the lights.  I went in and started to fuck her harder than ever.  She started screaming and I could feel blood coming down my dick.  I pulled out quickly and ran away.  I changed my phone number and moved into my friends house. Please forgive me, goddamn i hate myself.