When I am having sex with my wife I imagine I

I am cheating on my wife. I am 49, she is 6 months younger than I am, we have been married for 20+ years. The first 10 or 12 years were good. We had sex 3-4 times a week and usually more than once at each sitting. Then she started going through menopause early at about 32 years old. Sex fell off to about once a month if I pester her enough. I started looking online for at dating sights and CL. Real relief came from a co-worker. I would have lunch with her once in a while, she wasn't happy with sex at home, I wasn't happy. We get together once a week for an extended lunch or tell our respective spouses we have to work a little late and spend a few hours at our hiding place and have wonderful sex. I don't feel guilty, I am just getting my needs taken care of by someone who wants to be intimate. I wish the situation were different because I love my wife but she doesn't appear to be interested in my needs

I am cheating on my wife. I am 49, she is 6 months younger than I am, we have been married for 20+ ...

A couple of weeks ago three guy friends, my boyfriend and I went to a party to celebrate a girl friend's 21st birthday. We were all staying the night so we decided to get shit faced. This is not a normal thing for me to do, as I am the 'proper' one out of the group. I'm the one who follows all the rules and regulations, but my boyfriend convinced me to let loose. Anyway, I was offered drink after drink as the night progressed, until I couldn't stand without help. I was ready to go to bed to be honest, and I was feeling rather sick, but once again my boyfriend talked me into staying. "Just one more..."seemed to be his mantra. By 12pm I was gone. Completely and utterly wasted. I only remember patches of what I did. The patches I do remember are not pleasant. I snorted cocaine with the guys (It was white powder, so I assume it was cocaine). I remember that clearly. After that I remember talking to a stranger about Death Note, and how it sucked that L died. When I became aware again the setting was entirely different. I was in a room with my three guy friends and my boyfriend. I remember laying on the bed. My pants were down and the shirt pushed up over my breasts. One of the guys (Let's call him Henry) was pulling on a condom. I remember laughing. I don't remember much after that, but I do recall feeling each boy there (Including my boyfriend) take their turn with me. When I came back to my senses the next morning, I was alone in the room. My legs and arms were full of bruises that looked like finger marks. I instantly felt afraid and violated. I have spoken to my boyfriend about that night and what I remembered. He denied that it ever happened. He said the bruises were his fault and that I only had sex with him that night. Foolishly I chose to believe him. A couple of days ago I found a video on his phone of the incident. It shows him and the guys doing some pretty fucked up things to me while I was passed out. Now the questions I ask is: Is this considered rape? Should I dump my boyfriend? Should I report this? Or am I just overreacting and blowing this out of proportion?

A couple of weeks ago three guy friends, my boyfriend and I went to a party to celebrate a girl frie...

Cheating but not guilty! I am a married woman. My husband is a great guy and a very loving supporting father. I have had a wild past and enjoy to party hard but now I'm married and a mother the chances of going out are limited now. As I say my family is great and my husband loves doing things as a family but not that much as a couple anymore. When I get the chance to go out with the girls he is more than happy for me to go out and he looks after our child. Last Christmas I went out with some girls from the fitness class I attend. I wore a sexy black lace dress. As the night went on we bumped into a guy i knew from when I used to go out a lot. It was good to see him and I stayed out with him and his friends when my group went home. I know I'm not a good drinker and can become quite flirty but I was enjoying the attention. He bought me more drinks and we spent more time chatting and dancing together. I could tell he was interested and started to feel attracted to him. When I was younger I had heard the rumours he was very well equipped in the trousers. I hadn't noticed but the bar we were in was almost empty and his friends were no longer there. It was just the two of us. I was preparing to go with the intention of returning home to my husband. I told my friend I was going to the toilet, he walked with me then I held his hand and entered the ladies with him. Before I knew it I was sat in a cubicle with my friend facing me. I unfastened his trousers and discovered all the rumours I had heard were true. I won't go into detail but I performed oral sex on my friend. After that we both went home and our separate ways. We have kept in touch since with the odd flirt but nothing sexually has happened. My husband is none the wiser so I don't feel like anyone has been hurt. I've kept in touch with the guy but nothing has happened since although I often send him a flirty message. I would like to take it further but I'm scared of getting caught and losing my family. The thought of it though gets me excited xxx

Cheating but not guilty! I am a married woman. My husband is a great guy and a very loving support...