Degeneración....

Loneliness Im tired of being lonely, it started young this feeling of "I feel like a space between everyone and me but for when I was a certain way" wink;) I have never found the right person to love or love me. sometimes its awful and other times I am far from alone but feel empty yet I make an effort to get into life. I refuse to feel lonely even when I am.

Loneliness Im tired of being lonely, it started young this feeling of "I feel like a space between e...

i woke up dizzy again and came home after the heart centre dizzy but i don't want a home doctor here cuz the house is so unkept with dust and fleas and i have been so ill over the break i done the bare minimum to keep it basic tidy. i hate living like this because i used to clean the house for my parents all the time. i was a slave to there house cleaning it due to my disorder i even now hate disorder in retail shops or doctors offices and wait rooms and want to tidy everything it annoys me no end. my sister has helped me get over my cleaning obsessions with her ruination mentality but the house is not the way i want it.

i woke up dizzy again and came home after the heart centre dizzy but i don't want a home doctor here...

I was like lucy leek, clean clean clean the house, using old toothbrushes to clean the carpet edging and vacum and mop 5 times a day on one floor from the age of 7 til 35 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VoNKLbPvCrY I even gave up going to parties and meeting up with friends just to clean and clean and clean and wash and wash and wash and mop and vacum and dust and clean and clean and clean. I even got a job cleaning I loved it so much, cleaning bathrooms and kitchens and making beds for hours a day. and my sister sure helped me with my ocd of cleaning... fucking mongrel bitch. she had the hide to call one of those pop stars mr messy which is herself. she sure cured me of a ocd cleaning disorder with all her mess and grott and running around around around after her when she was in hospital .https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pdffu6Y6U84 wish someone would run around and around after me since i was in hospital.

I was like lucy leek, clean clean clean the house, using old toothbrushes to clean the carpet edging...