Degeneración....

i don't have a bedroom of my own anymore. every other bedroom is filled with clothing I never got to wear and things I bought to avoid being near anyone who would bash me up for a man ever again. i chose loneliness over love due to avoid being abused and bullied and I don't regret it. its just a sad reflection of the world we live in now that few people have real morals or care for others.

i don't have a bedroom of my own anymore. every other bedroom is filled with clothing I never got to...

i don't want to share my things with others really unless i am paid for it and get something valuable back in return. I don't own a house or car and i could do with a house of my own and a career. Its too late for children and I really feel my health is too risky to bare children now. I get regular skin bleeding around the vagina area from the auto-immune disorder that i thought when i was 25 was hiv aids and herpes and syphilis or tb also of the ear and i was running round having blood tests all the time to check. its still a fear in me that ken who raped me gave me hiv aids. I never wanted a loser like him and I don't ever want to see him again and my mother and father have said they would murder him. it would ease my mind to know a lot of people who i hate who attacked me are dead like robodog and rick and ken and so i could just move on to a new life without them as part of it. they were never ment to be in my life book and i want a new chapter that is very choosi about who is welcome in my life and they are not welcome. there is a lot of people not welcome. and looking for honest respectful people they don't have to be rich. I am just sick of being forced to make do and told how to feel and expected to give when i don't want to anymore. i don't want to be nice to many people anymore. i am cynical and sarcastic now. I love being around people who make fun of the rich and uperty and fake asses out there and scammers. I done penance for being abused child now. putting up with brisbane and the people here is penance. i hate them.

i don't want to share my things with others really unless i am paid for it and get something valuabl...

my sister molested me as a child and she constantly screams hate satanic messages to me whenever she can and its like its her way of blaming me when she knows what she did but will not admit it or go get help about it. I told my parents about everything and they don't take sides but in a way they do take sides now because my sister is so demonic. she is not normal but worst of all she didn't want me to have a normal life or have better then her or even same as her.

my sister molested me as a child and she constantly screams hate satanic messages to me whenever she...