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My boyfriend and I are pretty much in an amazing relationship. 5 years strong, but not married yet. Marriage isn't the top of my priorities...but... I just dont know why he wont even propose to me yet... all our friends are married, on their way to having families and moving on to bigger and better things... why can't we? He totally has the money to be engaged to me.. and he knows i want a destination wedding, so it will be cheaper than a traditional wedding.. but... still no big question asked to me... I just feel so sad when people asked why i'm not married to him yet. My only reply is I dont know... He does love me, he is committed (we have a house, car, insurance, phone, a dog and cat all together) and it's not like i ever want kids. I hate kids, and that should be a huge plus for him. I don't know why.. maybe he's getting bored of me....

My boyfriend and I are pretty much in an amazing relationship. 5 years strong, but not married yet. ...

I put this under waste because I've wasted my life. Here it goes. I'm bad like really bad. But looking at me you would never know. People are catching on as my life falls apart. I've been living like a quadruple life I guess. I don't even know who I am anymore. I can't think of anything I like. I hate everything and everyone. I have no friends left, the women of my life cheated lied and stole the entire time I've known them. Most of my buddies too. Just users you know. I always offer too much and people gladly accept my generosity. I always try and help but it eventually becomes them being entirely dependent on me. Then they go and I've lost so much in them. I never see the fruits of my labours. Now I'm totally alone. And financially ruined. Relying on booze and drugs to feel better about the shitty person I am. I pray to god thanking him only, not asking for more. He still rewards me a lot. Gives me great opportunity and strength to conquer challenges. But I can't conquer myself. I want to end my life. Nobody would notice except the few leeches who still cling to my generosity. Everybody I've helped is doing great. I never took time to take care of myself, or set myself up better. My friends, wife, in laws, girlfriends, and associates have all benefitted greatly from my efforts but I'm fucked mentally physically and financially. I even still protect people after they betray me. Keep their secrets, bend to their requests. I'm going to blow my brains out. I hate this world, it's ruined anyway. Goodby you fucked up people. There's a good chance that there is someone in your life going through this who helped you a lot. I bet you won't even reach out to repay what's owed. Sick fucking society world wide.

I put this under waste because I've wasted my life. Here it goes. I'm bad like really bad. But loo...

so i have a woman who i think about everyday. and ive let her know that i love her. but she refuses to fuck. and ive given her every good reason for why i am worth it. and she is totally igorant to the fact of what i can offer its like yo. im a inheritor of a mass fortune, and i am planning on buying my masion on 3826 thousand oaks cir. after i turn 25 and the paperwork get signed over. im going to be buying my lamborghini and going on a large vacation for the rest of my life. buy mass amounts of marijuana. and she only comes around when that reality of living is being lost. its like yo. i dont walk around and flash my cock and waive my papers around and every piece of pussy i want to fuck. your damn lucky i even let you in on a family secret we have had to protect, due to privacy purposes on me being that wealthy at the age of 6. at a point in time you got to be real. if you dont bend your ass over and get those nasty tattoos removed of what was a perfect body. im pretty damn sure i could find whomever the fuck i want that would be willing to bend there asses over to take a 175 million dollar cock. and dont cross the line, if you aint going to step up, then step the fuck out of the way. i dont have time to sit every woman down and explain on who i am. but when the reality of what i can offer when i drive up in whatever car i want. i dont gotta do shit to explain to people why i am powerful. im the type of guy who is the game changer. im pretty sure you have a sister or a idiot friend who is willing to drop their bullshit of their drama to change who they want to become.

so i have a woman who i think about everyday. and ive let her know that i love her. but she refuses ...