Degeneración....

i have been so constipated last few weeks sometimes I feel like i have a bowel blockage or a tumor in the bladder one gp kept going on about. i just feel bad ever since i swallowed these fucking Asian sour peach seed they suck on. i swear its giving me bowel issues I usd to get it with bread so I cut out a lot of dough based things i can't eat scones or white breads or pitza bases I can't eat those husks too much. I can't eat certain foods. i am rarely allowd to eat what i want, i used to have more say in cooking dinner and now i am not allowed to as much and i am sick of the shit we eat.

i have been so constipated last few weeks sometimes I feel like i have a bowel blockage or a tumor i...

I hate people who always say "don't compare yourself to others" or "don't feel that way" "you should consider her feelings" does she consider my feelings or stresses? no! so why should I care that she is a mother, that doesn't make her stresses more important then my stresses. its natural to compare. I will type back to them what they said to me and see how they like it. its a normal human emotion to want love and marriage, they have no prototype on that emotion. I will say back them what they said to me over and over and see it they like it when they complain.

I hate people who always say "don't compare yourself to others" or "don't feel that way" "you should...

i won't forgive emma for abusing me the way she did, getting that teen to stalk me. i know what she was implying that i am some immature women on disability but I am more mature then her and all her appenders , did she consider my health stresses and worries - no she added to them. I had cancer did she care. I am not jealous of my parents having radium and chemo for their cancer how stupid. I am grateful to god but I am angry at god for what he has done to me. when I have been over loyal to the lord. over righteous and good, god has wronged me for being good. so i am telling god he has to learn to dance to my tune and my doctor agrees. bugger how other people feel. they got themselves pregnant and they can suffer it out without my pity or joy for them. they have to do that for themselves. but why emma would do that to me i don't understand she was a real wolf in sheeps clothing and evil how evil of a married woman to push a teenage boy onto me and i am in my 40s and she is implying i am immature just because i am on disability and had serious illnesses that are none of her business, just so she could re-marry and get up thd duff again. what an evil thing to do! you evil bad woman. you will get what is coming to you whore. why should i give more then she gives back to me. no. i will not be happy for her. not now not ever. she wronged me. it had to end. I hope she has the modesty and decency to stay away from me next week and not come, as I dont want to see her and I will ignore her if I do. she should be punished. not loved but punished for what she did. and she told me she used to steal cakes from kids.

i won't forgive emma for abusing me the way she did, getting that teen to stalk me. i know what she ...