Degeneración....

to me I would like a guy to pay for my ticket to see the ballet or opera or a nice dinner and go for a nice evening drive rather then go to loud concerts, its only money as a student and disability single pension I can't really afford ballet and oprah tickets and I think that is a big shame because there is a lot of people like me who would go to church and go to orchestras or as a drama student we went to a few live stage plays and even at school we seen the La biot theatre do shakespear. I am bored with pop music wankers. I like it now and then but I really like when my mum talks about how her and friends would get dressed up in the 1950s with gloves and hats to go to the matinees and operas and my mother and father have a huge ancient classical and opera vinyl collection - like I mean these are the really old hard vinyl of the 1920s even. I am the wort of person who wants the finer things in life now. I like the ice-skating and gymnastics and diving and long jump and swimming and I would sooner go to a ballet or opera or live stage play these days, and long holidays , I mean when I go on this cruise we are going for about 1 month, I would like to do a world cruise to be honest. I would prefer to listen to old radio serials and audio books then half the rubbish at the movies these days. I go to kids flicks because the adult stuff is shit and depressing and violent. I don't watch tv, I study most mornings between 5am-12 I exercise a bit and I study sometimes again from 1 til 6 and again from 7 pm -12pm I am set in my ways a bit now. I love cabaret and I really wanted to go to that moulin rouge stage performance for my birthday but I couldn't afford it.

to me I would like a guy to pay for my ticket to see the ballet or opera or a nice dinner and go for...

I have not seen a live band or concert in over 15 years. just don't have the money on the unemployement or pension to do those things and I don't watch many movies at home or tv they don't interest me, I only watch occasional old films or new ones and go to the cinema about 4 or 5 the last 5 years. you can't do much when all your dreams have been stolen from you. so you stop looking. you stop dreaming, you stop wondering about having a hope of improvement because ...

I have not seen a live band or concert in over 15 years. just don't have the money on the unemployem...

I just sit at home make food for people and clean up and try to look after the pets but all my family do that. I used to enjoy renovating and decorating but I really wanted a place of my own to do that. I just do courses and volunteer work here and there in bits, and I never over crowd or push my way into community groups like I see a lot of people doing at church or other places. I have never had a big group of friends ever. I was never pretty enough rich enough. or I was talked about behind my back for my clothing choices at college or university and most of it was cheap and average to conversative because I was never allowed to be a show-off, my parents never liked children who were show ponies and status object orientated. excitment to us was getting in the car with my dad and alp promotional people and dad doing voice overs all over the place for voting and sometimes he called the live broacadcasts over the game live on the ground or we went dancing or skating and we never had a lot of money. I can remember having dinner with priests but mum did that more then me cuz she lived next door to them. I never really had any special birthday parties really only a few times mostly when werner was alive then it was always on the farm. the most exciting thing there was a stupid slide night and drinks with old people. same with radio crap, and most of that when we moved here it was all rosie and davey show here. there was no catherine show ever! my relatives couldn't even get off their lazy bums to support me at the quest finals when all the other girls had tables full of guests I had only 3 guests apart from my parents. like wow! shows you how liked I was.

I just sit at home make food for people and clean up and try to look after the pets but all my famil...