Degeneración....

i have worried i am dying or have a illness no doctor will tell me about. i don't want to live if my cat dies or if my mother dies. there will be no point to life. sometimes i torture myself with videos of bodies done up for coffins and morgue and crematory and how they pump out the blood to put in a fluid. what is the point of life with my cat or my mum. my bastard father had tried to kill us all with his smoking and his stupidity. i just stay in bed all day everyday for the last 7 years and sick of vomiting and headaches and doctors talking shit at me. and their lies and churches lies and they are stealers. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4N3N1MlvVc4&list=RD4N3N1MlvVc4&start_radio=1 and everyone is scamming and the only winners are the hustlers. we are told to learn to get your hustle together to get work. yeh right. go shove a chainsaw up your face and cunt!

i have worried i am dying or have a illness no doctor will tell me about. i don't want to live if my...

and i don't want to be anyones friend but be around my mother and cats. friends are a waste of time. they don't care. i have always played life so safe i would cut off a limb and have no relationship to be safer then in one that is how I look at life. no man would give me much anyway. all users and losers. deadbeats and idiots. all men are scum my mum is right about that. dad says it too. they are right.

and i don't want to be anyones friend but be around my mother and cats. friends are a waste of time....

i used to have awful terrifying nightmares of crematoriums and it always happen when I was being bullied and tortured and i knew when the spirits and ghosts and people in this town hated me and when they liked me, and they rarely liked me. i felt like this town had nothing good for us.

i used to have awful terrifying nightmares of crematoriums and it always happen when I was being bul...