Degeneración....

I am tired of my "friends" making decisions for me, and I am stupid enough to actually do as they say. If I make poor decisions, it is my choice. I appreciate their concern, but they take it overboard. If I don't do things their way, they tell me they're done with me. But in reality I am the one done with their shit. To top it off I am never anyone's first choice. I am never the one people want. I am just scraps. I am used by many, and treated like crap by others. I am vulnerable, lost. I cant help it, I am weak. I understand that at times we have to make wise decisions, but what about when we are mistaken? Why is it so difficult for some to forgive us? It doesn't matter, in term they are just temporary. Everything is temporary but their violence has to go.

I am tired of my "friends" making decisions for me, and I am stupid enough to actually do as they sa...

Right now my mother is not letting me be with the love of my life which sucks a lot because she wants to report him for something he never did. I try to run away but unfortunately that didn't work out so I try to make my mom understand how much I feel about this guy. And isn't a ordinary guy he my extradordary guy for me and I love that but I still wish she would understand me and stop yelling at me for no reason as well.

Right now my mother is not letting me be with the love of my life which sucks a lot because she want...

I sometimes think that my mom should have just had friends and not a third child (me). My brothers are great, I'm a failure in every way. I'm now 34, and my mom is still with my step dad who ever since I can remember has made my mom cry. I've worried about my mom dying or being sad all of my life. I'm uptight, worried and very alone in the world. I don't know how to emotionally connect with anyone. My husband and I divorced last year after about 3 years it was a very lonely marriage. I cry nearly every day. I'm dating a good guy that has a daughter. It's been very hard. I no longer seem to understand "normal" human interaction. I've always been there for my mom since I was a kid, but she turned her back on me when I was going through one of the hardest times in my life. I'm very angry and hurt. I feel betrayed. She still has no idea that I feel this way.

I sometimes think that my mom should have just had friends and not a third child (me). My brothers a...